Testimonies
About a year ago I actually made an appointment and went in to see Frank. I wanted to find out if he could help me. I had watched him minister for about 5 years – even went to two of his seminars on Theophostic prayer ministry. I watched others that I knew who were seeing him. I watched with amazement at their growth and transformation. Maybe he could help me. It was worth a try.
At the time, I was miserable. I was depressed. I felt like I lived behind a wall of Plexiglas that I could never break through. I was there but not always totally engaged. I felt like I missed God’s best for me – like I had failed him (and everyone else in my life). I had recently been having panic attacks and confusion. Yet, I could not put my finger on what would possibly be the cause.
I was 64, happily married for about as many years. My husband and I raised three children who are all nicely married and have given us 8 beautiful grandchildren. I was enjoying being retired.
I had become a Christian at eight years of age. Always loved the Lord. Tried to do what was right. Received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit when I was in my twenties. With my husband, owned a Christian bookstore and ministered full time. Received a degree in Biblical Studies and a certificate in Early Childhood Development. Used both of those to the best of my ability. Was ordained and for a time an associate pastor.
So why was I so very miserable? And, why couldn’t I climb out of that pit? Why did I feel like I had to strive just to get through each day?
I got tired of the battle and I gave up and went to see Frank.
That’s when the Holy Spirit showed me the lies that I had believed because of my abusive upbringing. The lies lay buried in the core of my being. Even though my head knew the God’s truth and God’s Word, they hadn’t replaced the lies that I took in as a child.
Week by week the Holy Spirit revealed the lies and Frank guided me straight to Jesus and His Truth. Week by week the walls came down, the lies exposed, and freedom came. Now I can believe and experience the love of my heavenly Father. I realized that could be a human “being”, not a human “doing”.
More balance came into my life. I can say “No”, and I can say “Yes”. It is even okay to have fun. I am more present in all situations. One of the grandest experiences has been my ability to feel – to feel more emotion, to feel life, to notice details of color and smell. I even dilly-dally and not feel guilty! And I am trying all sorts of new things. Something I would never have done before.
I am so thankful for Frank’s ministry, his easy manner, and expertise. But, thankful most of all for his willingness to listen and wait on the Holy Spirit with this patient.
JW, Virginia
“…….Wanted you to know that now that life has gotten back to normal, (whatever that is…), I can really tell a difference: so much more peace, sleeping better for the first time in decades, and a real change in my relationship with my daughter, which totally surprised me! Her attitude toward me has softened and become much more warm and loving, for which I am very, very grateful to the Lord and to you. Thank you, my Brother!”
M. M.
In the winter of 2005 I drove 8 hours to work with Frank Meadows. I came to him broken, frustrated and desperate. I had been struggling for almost 2 years with the pain of childhood victimization. In 2003, after the birth of my daughter, repressed memories of victimization began flooding my mind. Body memories and flashbacks made it almost impossible to fulfill my roles as mother and wife. Getting through the day, taking care of my young children’s needs, and being physically intimate with my husband were becoming more and more difficult.
Finally, after two years of struggling I made the 8-hour trip to Virginia Beach and in a day and a half I spent 10 hours receiving Theophostic Ministry from Frank. Through God’s power, Frank’s anointing and my desperation to heal, God used the time with Frank to do a mighty work in my life. Groundwork was laid for my complete healing and restoration. It’s been almost one year since I travelled to see Frank and every ounce of effort put into making that journey has paid off. It’s been at least 9 months since deep depression and despair have plagued me. It has also been a really long time since I have parented on ‘autopilot’ or have been triggered by physical intimacy with my husband.
I am walking in a new freedom and have been restored. Life is still life but I am now better able to manage it because as life happens, major wounds are not being triggered; many of those triggers no longer exist. And when things do come up, I use the tools of Theophostic Ministry in my own personal time, as Frank modeled for me in our time together. Frank’s ministry and God’s intervention saved my life, my marriage, and my children’s childhood.
L.T.
I heard about Theophostic Prayer from a friend at church who said it changed her life. I was searching for help for my daughter who had anorexia. She was in traditional counseling with a psychologist and a psychiatrist for 14 months. She was so medicated she had a difficult time functioning and she was cutting her wrist with scissors. She missed her entire junior year of high school. The doctors wanted to put her in a hospital and said she would be on medication for 2 to 3 years after treatment in case she had a relapse.
Fortunately, Frank was presenting the basic Theophostic seminar by video. My friend offered to go along and introduce me as he was her counselor. I was amazed and excited with what I learned. It made such sense and knew this was an answer to my prayers. I quickly made an appointment with Frank to start seeing my daughter. She was also found to have OCD and dissociation. Within 5 months, she was off all medications and was able to return to school for her senior year. She now in her 3rd year of college and is very healthy with no relapse at all because of the true healing she received through Jesus Christ.
My husband stated to see Frank when my daughter was diagnosed with OCD because we understood it was inherited. He displayed many of the traits and we could see where this led back through his family. It was a relief to have answers to why he did things the way he did even though we did not know to question it, “it’s just the way it was.” He also had to confront the fact that he was an alcoholic. My husband found healing through Jesus Christ using Theophostic and Frank’s counseling on some large issues.
I began seeing Frank a few months after my husband started going because I was determined to understand what was wrong with my family. If something was wrong with me then I too wanted healing like I was seeing with my daughter and husband. I could tell right away that Frank’s faith was very strong. Although he was compassionate he also challenged me to see where I was co-dependent. He walked me through the process of Theophostic and as soon as I made the choice to let Jesus have what I was holding on to – healing was right there. I have never been the same. I have experienced a tremendous amount of healing including panic attacks and claustrophobia.
We have been very blessed as a family for Frank’s counseling and his understanding of healing using Theophostic. He is very transport with his own life and along with his willingness to allow Jesus to lead and be a part of the whole process makes him truly effective. My daughter is healed. My husband is in a better place with a much lower level of denial and actively participates in A.A. My son saw Frank for mild depression which is also now gone. Our family is so much happier, peaceful, and stronger. We look forward to the future. I do not hesitate tot tell people about the healing we have received and direct the to Frank’s office.”
Susan C., Chesapeake, VA
Theophostic Counseling has been an answer to my prayers. When I first sought counseling I was full of anger, bitterness, and resentment, I was miserable and hurting everyone around me. I cam in for counseling and learned about Theophostic Prayer, I was willing to try anything. After the first session of prayer, God began to reveal just how much hurt and pain was really in my life. Going back to the beginning of my childhood, God revealed areas hurt and anger and began to immediately heal these areas. Each time I come in for counseling through Theophostic prayer, God would reveal and heal yet another area of brokenness in my life. The results of Theophostic Healing Prayer became evident almost immediately to my family and friends. I began to react to situations in my life in a different way, anger that kept me bound for years is now gone and I was able to walk in forgiveness and a peace that I have never felt before in my life. Theophostic Prayer has truly changed my life.
Y.B.
“I am a strong believer, advocate and testament of Theophostic Counseling and the Lords healing restoration. I spent approximately 30 years of my life in and out of psychiatric offices and institutions. I can’t recall any 24 month period straight free of a hospitalization between the age of 10 and 35. Dr. Smith refers to the revolving door of the same patients; that never seemed to find true and lasting relief for years. That patient was me, over and over and over again, in and out of the struggle with deep depression, manic behavior, attempted suicides, with distorted irrational thinking and behavior. Days I felt crazy and days I knew I wasn’t, trying to find a way to be functioning youth, adult, wife, mother, employee, and Christian.
What was not accomplished in 30 years in and out of conventional counseling offices was healed and restored fully in just a few short years with Theophostic Counseling. Like many who seek counseling, we know what happened (in generalities), we can identify the trauma (sometimes specifically), we can tell you what it was, how it felt and even express most of the details on one level or another. What we usually can not understand is how it created the strange ways in which we perceive things around us and adapt to life based on those internal perceptions. For me, dissociation was so segregated the majority of my life, that a memory of an entire 24-48 hour period with out loss of several hours seldom occurred and it became my norm, and I really thought everyone’s life was the same. In the course of working with Frank Meadows, we discovered coping mechanisms (personalities that identified themselves by their character traits, and some not so pleasant) that literally kept me alive but also unintentionally or intentionally invited evil spirits of self-destruction, doubt and contempt.
Theophostic Counseling restored my mind that was damaged between the age of 3 to 7 by sexual abuse and I started my life at about 39 years old. Odd but not uncomfortable to admit, just odd. As crazy as it sounds I consider it a privilege to have walked through torrential waters of my life to also have had the privilege to experience sitting with our Lord beside the still and peaceful waters that revealed to me many profound things that brought to me freshness and soundness of mind, an understanding of safety, and above all love- love greater than human capacity can fathom.
Today, I am employed at one of the largest and fastest growing Christian Universities in the world. I stand in wonder that I am so privileged and I marvel at the Lords hand upon me and having kept me alive and on the special path he has me on.”
S. H., Gladys, VA
My wife and I were serving as full time missionaries and were recently married. It didn’t take long before we both realized we had some things to work out in ourselves individually as well as our marriage. We fought quite frequently and it was getting quite exhausting. While I went though theophostic prayer with Frank, I came to see that the hurts and wounds of my childhood were affecting my relationships, especially with my wife. The fear of abandonment and neglect I experienced as a child caused me to put up walls and not open up to loved ones. The Lord came and spoke truth to my head and my heart which has made all the difference in my relationships. Since theophostic prayer my relationship with my wife has deepened and gotten a lot better. I am trusting easier and learning to love her better. I would recommend any newly married couple or engaged couple to go through several sessions with Frank to have the Lord heal up any potential areas that would cause them to stumble or prevent the pure love of God to shine through.
BTW, missionary
My whole life I have struggled with feelings of self hatred and rejection. This caused me to be very unsure of myself and even caused occasional times of deep depression. When I got married all these feelings that were hidden deep in my heart became exposed and caused a lot of stress and unnecessary tension in my marriage. I could not hear any advice from my husband without taking offense to it and it left me with even greater feelings of self hatred. I felt that every thing I did was wrong and that I was not wanted by anyone. My husband and I decided to to go to Frank Meadows for Theophostic Prayer Ministry after a good friend suggested it. After only 3 months of ministry my whole life changed. I see myself completely different and my marriage was saved. God encountered me in such a deep way in every session that it changed the very core of how I thought about myself. Now when I hear advice or suggestions from my husband or others I no longer get enraged and sad but rather respond calmly and I can actually listen to what they are saying to me and take it to heart without feeling rejected. I have so much confidence and joy now, I feel like a whole new person. I have been healed and set free and I love myself!
JW, Missionary from Africa
For one, people’s words don’t get to me like they used to. I am speaking of certain people in particular as well as in general. When certain people would accuse me or attack my character based on my past I would get offended. I would feel a piercing in my heart. Although I would try to control myself and hold in my emotion and anger it usually led to me exploding with both of these feelings. Now, I try to relate to a person as to why they feel the way they feel. Either way, I now know in my heart, and not just my head, that God unconditionally loves me and accepts me. In relation to love and acceptance this is important to know because then it doesn’t matter what others say and do to us. So, that’s the first thing and it is so awesome to experience.
Second, I am not so conscious of what people think of me in another way as well. This is concerning my physical appearance. I used to want to hide my body when I didn’t feel I looked like I was attractive. If I had a gut is what I’m particularly referring to. I’ve laid off of the gym a bit lately and have been eating good as well, thus gaining some pounds. I’ve got a bit of a gut and really could care less about it. I mean, it’s still a personal goal of mine to get back in shape and tone up for God, my wife and family, and myself. But it’s just not about looking like a model so others accept me and don’t think I’m fat. This also is awesome and feels great.
Third is not so much about a change in my heart or way of thinking necessarily. Because of the knowledge and understanding of Theophostic Prayer Ministry I now feel it important to pray in a new way. It helps to walk this Christian walk when we understand, even if just on a general level, why we do what we do and feel what we feel. It is my opinion, because I used to do this, that people lie and deceive themselves about what they truly believe and feel. I think they do this because they know God’s Word is contrary to what they think and feel and they feel they shouldn’t think or feel that way. Basically, our hearts reveal what our heads say we shouldn’t feel and we tend to block out our feelings and go with what we “know” we should think and feel.
That’s all I have for now. I know in my heart I will notice more changes as time goes on. God bless you abundantly, Frank.
GPW
The Meadow’s Healing Prayer Center is like a green house to me. I have needed a special environment at the right temperature to open up the wounds of the past. Here, I have exposed places of abuse in my life without the threat of incurring more shame. I had no idea how wounded I was from childhood abuse. Forgiving from the heart required me to experience feelings of fear, rejection and confusion. It made me vulnerable. Frank’s work has helped me to cognitively understand how abuse and wounding, no matter how seemingly insignificant, needs to be released at an emotional level. In a very real way it has helped me hide His Word in my heart so I will not sin in the future.
Here are the three biggest changes in behavior I have seen a result of this prayer ministry. I am more present with my family. The emotional detachment I used to protect myself is decreasing. Therefore, we are all able to enjoy each other’s company more. Secondly, there are still times of depression but I am able to practice an active melancholy. The daily duties get done even if I don’t feel good. Finally, an understanding of healthy boundaries has dawned. I am able to keep a good boundaries in relationships because I more aware of how I feel. I don’t have to argue or withdraw. I can be more graceful in stating how I feel. I don’t have to go on guilt trips from other people. When boundaries are built well, my objectivity grows. I can see where I am responsible in a situation. I am learning to say ‘No’. And in learning to say ‘No’ to people, my ‘Yes’ is authentic.
This prayer ministry requires personal responsibility to nurture changes. It is not magic. They take root as I practice them. Christ changes you from the inside out! This is the real deal because no one can take away what God gives you when you wait on Him to heal at a heart level.
J.G. , Virginia
Fear has always been present with my family. It was with my Jewish grandfather as he escaped the terrifying pogroms of Eastern Europe; it was with his family who subsequently died in the holocaust; it was with my Jewish grandmother who feared the Nazi’s would come to the States and take her back to Germany; it was with my mother as she told me, “Jon, remember you’re Jewish and don’t tell anyone.” It was fear that compelled my Mormon grandparents to flee persecution from Christians as they followed the pioneering movement of “Prophet” Joseph Smith. As a result of these and other distasteful experiences, FEAR, particularly of Christians, was firmly rooted in me. It grew so strong that I resolved never to become a Christian. Eventually that predisposition developed into hatred; and hatred, into more fear. But God in His loving mercy provided this unique prayer ministry through which I might change.
At the outset I was interested in Theophostic Prayer Ministry, but became enthralled when I observed a ministry session at a local seminar. Seeing God miraculously and instantaneously heal an emotionally wounded person opened my eyes to my own need for healing. I wanted to know more about that ministry, so I made an appointment with one of the seminar facilitators.
My first personal experience with Theophostic was frustrating and I did not want to come back. I got stuck in a memory and didn’t know why. I did not understand that I controlled my “will” to receive healing: God would not force it on me. The eventual discovery of that concept gave new meaning to the old cliché, “Let go and let God.” I knew I needed healing, so I returned for another session and allowed the Holy Spirit to minister to that memory. Now after several hundred hours of personal prayer ministry, I’ve found freedom in several areas of my life. The greatest of these has been the release from the bondage of fear.
Experiencing Jesus’ perfect love cast out that fear. Repenting of the hatred was easy after that initial understanding. Freedom from fear, freedom from an unseen bondage … Liberty! In that liberty, I am able and willing to attend church with other Christians and experience the richness of being in the Body of Christ. This same freedom has extended to my family and work relationships. But the greatest release has been in giving my testimony. No longer does my Jewish heritage seem threatening; now the knowledge and acceptance of it has become energizing.
In addition, this new found freedom allowed me to see the codependency in my own relationships. In the past I had always worried about every situation I was in. I took too much responsibility for matters at work, at home, in my ministry, and in my extended relationships. No matter how hard I tried, I always fell short of God’s best for my life. Following the Theophostic Prayer Ministry principles brought me to a peace in my own relationship with the Lord. I no longer needed to wrap myself around every person and every situation to prove my significance. I no longer viewed each unsettling event as being “about Me”. I learned that I could simply be and simultaneously at peace about God’s timing and provision for other lives. In this new found freedom I find that I can minister God’s love more effectively.
Another milestone in my walk has been a release from anger. Before Theophostic so many of my responses were driven by anger, an anger that was rooted in my fears. Bringing healing to my memories has removed that fear and ultimately the anger. My response to untimely circumstances is now more appropriate. I am at peace when things go awry; I am at peace even when those around me are doing displeasing things.
Just as the Word says, our mind needs continual renewal and I have determined to seek that healing, that restoration in all the areas of my life.
1 Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship.
2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect. Romans Chap 12 NASB
Jon
Hi Frank,
You had asked me to email you the following week after my prayer session at the prayer ministry training. I’m still in awe that I was chosen to receive prayer counseling that day. In the weeks prior to March 3rd, I had been writing down, while reading Ed Smith’s Manual, lies that I knew I believed. I had a list of about 6 or 7 things I knew were lies that I was believing as truth. After our session, all but one of the things I had written down have been healed. I no longer believe the lies I once believed. I’m amazed that the root lie was not being able to trust Jesus. It makes me sad that I wasn’t able to trust him, because I thought that I did. Maybe, I only trusted Him with somethings before……………………………. Thank you so much for the prayer counseling session, our God is amazing. More amazing that I can imagine.
God Bless,
AC in Pittsburgh, PA
I just want to take a few minutes to thank you Frank for your ministry. to me. Over the last few years I have noticed that there were far to many times when I was not experiencing the best of all the Lord has made available, and found I needed time with someone I felt I could trust to help me find healing and peace over my life. While people may attend church on Sundays and maybe even Wednesday nights, there are indeed days when the troubles of this world seem to overwhelm us; even though we are born again and trying to walk in the spirit. Many need help with the earlier times when things didn’t go so well. I built up a wall to protect myself from the pain of traumatic and tragic circumstances of a suppressed and destructive past. Now I am able to not only recover from many of the false images and memories, but most importantly, be able to forgive those who caused the pain. It was very important to wash away the lie-based-thinking that caused me to put up that wall around me, to protect me from the hurt and misunderstanding I went through. The most important part was identifying that negative method of thinking; and cleaning out and exposing sin’s deepest emotions on my way to recovering and enjoying all that the Lord wants me to share with him. While this life will never be perfect, I am now better equipped to deal with it’s problems and on the right path toward understanding the freedom in the Spirit. Again, a grateful thank you for your listening and being there praying with me.
Yours In The Lord,
D. M.
I had been advised many times in the past about the power of Theophostic prayer to unlock longstanding emotions tied to the past. It wasn’t until I was sent back from the field with advice to deal with some issues and seek counseling that I searched for it and found Frank Meadows. In only a few sessions I could see the roots of so many relational problems unknotted and addressed. Now I’m much freer to continue much more functional and loving relationships, and to return to the field and continue serving. –Overseas worker, SE Asia.
